There are subtle noises at my work being made that are leaning towards change. At barely a whisper, it’s hard to tell if the change is merely my imagination or might actually happen. Usually, I can tell when something is “off” and right now, something is “off”.
One of my coworkers, while very nice and a great person; usually talks or makes some type of noise for the better part of the day. Random song lyrics out of nowhere, blurting out what she’s thinking regardless of the subject (she once informed us she needed to go #2), and wild statements that you’re positive aren’t true (my mom believe’s you’re the devil). My assumption is she talks to hear herself talk; but she’s also commented that she takes meds for ADHD, so that probably plays a large role in her personality.
Recently, she had an upcoming day off. One of the other ladies asked her what her plans for the day were – her response was “I’m going to a job interview”.
No one said a word – positive or negative – we were all silent, like she hadn’t said a thing. Just like we react to 95% of her statements.
I asked one of the other coworkers (when we were alone) what her thoughts were. She responded with, “I don’t think she’s going to an interview. I think she just said that because she wanted someone to say ‘no, don’t leave! We’d be lost without you!’.”
But, for some reason, I think she was serious.
I don’t know. I could be wrong – I’ve been wrong before.
This leads me to another, similar, event.
While I did change jobs about 6 months ago, I am still with the same company. I’ve been with this company for over 22 years now. Over those years, they’ve done different processes for employee evaluations. Their current model is that everyone has their evaluation done during the same time-period. So, even though I’ve only been in the position for 6 months, I just completed my yearly evaluation.
It was a decent evaluation, with my manager praising the changes I have helped with during my short time in the department. She went so far as to say, “I wish there were 6 of you!” She also commented that she wished I would go full-time (I’m only part-time at 28 hours a week currently).
I stayed silent on her comments.
In the past, I would have agreed immediately to whatever my manager wanted from me. Bigger challenges? I’m on it! Want me to work myself crazy? No problem!
But not now. I reflected on her comments and reviewed the subtle shifts happening in the department. I see patterns, and can intuit things before others see the same things. I think we’re going to have a job opening in the department within the next 6 months.
And if my manager stays true to her statement, I’m not going to take the offered full-time job.
This is a huge change for me business wise. In the past, I would have jumped right on it. Already thinking about how I could change the position for the better (before I was in the position or even before being offered the position).
Now I know that if I took the position I would eventually be miserable.
Within a year, I would be stressed out and, eventually, willing to throw away my career just like I was before.
With the current job I have, and the personal growth I have experienced over the last several months, I know what I want out of life now. I know what I want to be when I “grow up”.
I want to create. Specifically, I love to create calm out of chaos.
That’s what I’m currently doing.
My core job duties are the same as what my coworkers’ job duties are – except I only do those duties about 35% of the time, while they do them around 85-95% of the time. The other 65% of my time is dedicated to special projects. The job didn’t start this way, but it has morphed as my manager saw my strengths and utilized them.
The projects I am given are a complete and utter disaster when they are handed to me.
I make sense of the project. I create processes on how to do the project going forward. I test out my process and revamp and revise as needed/necessary until it makes sense.
In six months of being in the office, I have tackled 6 major projects. Most are completed; a couple of projects are still in process. I’m given a new project every few weeks. I have more projects “in queue” to be worked on than I currently have time for.
And I am ecstatic!
Will I be willing to help out my manager in a pinch if my coworker does quit? Yes.
Will I do it without a plan to return to what I’m currently doing? No.
I finally feel like I’m a grown up. Funny how things like this work.